April favourites!

It’s the end of April and I thought I might do a favourites post. I’ve seen people do these all the time and I’ve always wanted to do one of my own. So why not? Here goes!

Firstly, I have been so thankful for my  Neutrogena Grapefruit Cleanser. My skin (although it’s normally pretty clear) has been hating me for the past couple of weeks. This cleanser has salicylic acid in it so it clears your skin right up! Plus it also smells AMazing so that’s a bonus!

Next, I have been loving the Benefit They’re Real Mascara. I bought it for the first time last year and it has been my go-to ever since. I love the plastic brush and the way it goes on. I  once had someone ask me if I was wearing false eyelashes, obviously I had to tell them “Nope, they’re real!”. I have also heard really good reviews about Benefit’s Roller Lash Mascara, and am contemplating giving that one a try. If you have tried it, I’d love to know your thoughts!

Another beauty-ish favourite has been Vaseline Lip Therapy lip balm in the cocoa butter sent. I got this at the start of the month an OH MY it is fantastic. Vaseline lip balms are different from others because it acts like a barrier to keep the moisture in your lips. This one smells great and leaves your lips incredibly soft, also the tin is adorable.

My only favourite clothing for April has been my new Birkenstocks. I’ve wanted a pair of Birks for a while now and I ended up getting a pair for my birthday. To be quite honest, they are not the most glamorous shoes, but after you break them in, the are the most comfortable shoes you will ever own! I have been wearing them with everything and they have stopped hurting for the most part.

For my book fav of the month, I have a trilogy that I’ve actually already read, but have recently re-read because that is how great it is! The first book is called Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins and MY OH MY I love it so much! I know the title might sound a bit cheesy but trust me it is not. Anna is a contemporary YA novel about a girl who is sent to a boarding school in Paris (that is all I am going to say because I don’t want to spoil anything) but trust me, it is one of my all time favourite books and definitely worth the read.

Finally, I’d like to mention Teenage Blogger Central, TBC is a blogging community that I have recently joined. So far, I have discovered a whole whack of great blogs and have had a lot of fun reading them. You should definitely go check it out!

So I guess that’s it! If you guys like favourites posts like this, I can try and make them a regular thing!

Until next time,

NiceGirl

Studying abroad?

Okay so this might sound crazy, but ever since a guest speaker in my class came and talked to us about this study abroad program, I just can’t shake it.

Once again, CRAZY! This does not sound like me at all. I’m too scared to go ride my bike to the library or call and order a pizza. But for some reason, I want to do this so badly. I think that going off on my own would be really beneficial for myself. I am by no definition independent, brave or adventurous but I want to be. And what better way then to see the world and get an incredible education? Honestly, I think this might be one of the best things I can do for myself.

The only thing is, when I mentioned it to my mom, she kinda shrugged it off like it was some kind of whim. Like, I know I am not an obvious candidate but this is something I (think I) really want to do. I understand that she is protective and does not want me to leave her, but I just can’t explain how excited this idea makes me!

Maybe it is just the idea that I like (it’s SOO Anna and the French Kiss, best book ever btw), maybe I wouldn’t actually be mentally strong enough or brave enough to do it. All I know is that it would be an adventure. Something that would change my life no matter what and turn me into a more independent and worldly person. Who doesn’t want to see the world?

Well, actually it would be mostly Europe. The program I am looking at (you can do a whole year or just one semester) offers a semester in Europe, visiting Paris, Germany, Italy, Belgium, Greece and many more. Imagine studying history in mausoleums and writing creative stories on the streets of France? GAH it sounds so great! They also have a more eastern semester in China etc, but Europe is definitely more my speed.

Another great thing is that a great chunk of the courses available are ones that I have already planned on taking in grades 11 and 12, and that they count for high school credits. How amazing would “took philosophy in Greece” look on Uni applications??! I will have to wait until at least next year to go on one of these trips, so I do have time.

Anyways, I am definitely excited about this possibility, and obviously it is something I will need to discuss in length with my parents. Maybe I am just being naive, and would be too scared to go. But this is something that I think would do me a world of good (no pun intended)

Have any of you ever though of, or did something like this? I’d love to hear your thoughts and experiences!

NiceGirl

It’s my birthday!

Yay! It’s my birthday! I am exhausted and I have had a headache all day, so I will make this brief.

Although I pretty much hate celebrating my birthday (unrequited attention? please no) and I always have, it was pretty good this year!

Yesterday,  my best friend Toad (that’s not her real name obvs) and my school best friend and I went out for dinner and then went to see the new live action Jungle Book movie. It went well, nothing was awkward and my two friends who have never met got along pretty well. Toad made me the adorable card and now we have matching bracelets. She also got me a book, which I am really excited about because her and I have the same taste in books. My other friend got me some nice LUSH stuff, a starbucks card and an OPI nail polish.

Today, mom and I went to a really big mall and shopped ALL DAY. It was fun but a little stressful. She had more luck than I did, but I ended up with two tops and a pair of birkenstocks. Really and truly I’m just glad we had a day together, my mom is by best friend.

So now, I’m in bed. 16 years old, with a headache and watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s in bed. Tomorrow I have a student council  awards ceremony at school and I have to dress up. Normally, I’d be thrilled but I’m going to have to get up and ready earlier and I’m just so tired.

Anyways, happy birthday me! Love you!

NiceGirl

Afraid of everything

“Fear kills more dreams than failure ever would”

Man that’s sounding ironic right now. Ever since I was little I have been very cautious. Maybe too cautious. I’m pretty much afraid of everything. Not everything as in snakes and spiders and bees (well, that too) but things that normal kids should have no problem doing. Such as; riding a bike, going to a party, trying something new etcetera. I’m even sinking afraid of dogs for crying out loud!

Now here I am, literally 6 days away from being 16 and I have not lived a single one of those 5840 days. My life has honestly passed me by. And I’m really disappointed in myself for not just living.

I have these crazy hopes and dreams of being this put together, worldly socialite who has the most ideal job and friends and social life. I want to be the person who is talked about in those Kate Spade quotes. Who lives life by the seat of her patterned skirt, and seizes the moment and floats in and out of parties.

I’m even afraid to drive a car. Like absolutely, insanely terrified to. I was also too afraid to run for student council secretary. Like it’s not like I’m running for president, it’s secretary. A job that little old me is probably perfectly cut out for. And I took a declaration form and everything, but life got complicated and I was afraid of the stress or failing or not liking it, so I didn’t even apply. Now, this other girl got appointed the position because no one was running against her.

I mentioned this too mom (who is my  best friend in the whole entire would) and she seemed almost upset that I never took the chance. She said that she has all these hopes and dreams for me and that she hopes that one day I will learn to live a little. This kinda stung, but it was nothing I had never thought myself. Here I am, life in shambles, all mopey and alone watching Friends and “blogging” on a blog that is my new whim. Something completely safe because no one will ever read it.

I know it is too late to become student council secretary, but I’ve been looking into taking courses abroad in Europe. Now I know that sounds crazy coming from me but I feel like it might be something that is really good for me. I’ve read books (like Anna and the French Kiss) where people study abroad and it is the best thing that has ever happened to them. I’ve always been a scaredy cat and sheltered so naturally mom didn’t even consider it, but I don’t know. Maybe it would be the greatest decision I’ve ever made or maybe I’m being crazy. Anyways, I’d really like to start “living” but I just don’t know what that looks like for me.

Anyways, I don’t really know what I wanted to get out of this, but I do feel a little better. Maybe one day I’ll look back at this and laugh. Any advice for overcoming a fear of life? It would be greatly appreciated.

Love (as always),

NiceGirl

(Oh, and my math test went fine, if you were wondering! I think I did my absolute best and I made it through. Not the end of the world!)

 

Trying your best

Ever since we are little, we are told by our parents, our teachers, everyone to try our best. So for the most part we do. I tend to label myself as a bit of an overachiever. I do my homework, I study for my tests and I’m not too modest to say that I get good grades.

But is trying your best, and failing still doing your best? Could you have done better? That question has been rotting in my brain recently. Obviously trying is extremely important, but recently, I’ve been thinking about trying to relax about things a little more. And with that comes less stress and time worrying about little things that are out of your immediate control. So it is okay not to be perfect all the time?

You’re probably wondering why I’m ranting? I have a math test tomorrow. And not just any math test THE quadratics unit math test. The one that is almost guaranteed to drop my average down a solid 5-8%!!!

I’ve known that this test has been approaching for a long time, and I’ve been to every class, I’ve done my homework and I’ve asked questions. I even made a study page and reviewed for 2 hours tonight. But for some reason, I still feel unprepared.

Now, I am absolutely positive that math is not my forte. It has never been. I am definitely more of an english/media/anything but math kinda gal. And I know that I will not be needing high level math in my future career (that, despite the comment is still undecided). So why am I setting these really high expectations for myself? Is it okay to just, try my best and settle for whatever grade I get, because odds are it will be decent? In a perfect world, I would push myself harder and study longer but nothing is perfect.

I went to my mom for math help, but seeing as though she accidentally fell asleep while watching TV, she was not much use. I did get her to wake up for a bit, and I told her that I was just going to do my best, and that I hoped that she would not be upset if I got a bad grade.

You know what she said? She said “I will never be disappointed” (and then promptly fell back asleep). I am very lucky that I have understanding parents, and that my mom is basically my best friend. I could not even fathom the pressure some parents put on their kids, considering the pressure some kids put on themselves.

Sometimes, you need to be able to define your own strengths and weaknesses, and not let that affect who you are. I am not dumb, I am not outgoing, I am not unmotivated. I just have different strengths than others.

Maybe it’s just me, or maybe lot’s of other people feel exactly the same way.

Have any of you ever had to just “let go” of something like a test and relax? I probably have already but it doesn’t feel any easier.

I’d love to hear your advice,

Love NiceGirl

 

I just had an epiphany..!

You know in books or movies where there are two best friends? And one or both of them has some completely compelling, unique quality that in some eyes makes them a freak, but in the eyes of their friends makes them…them? Well today I realized that even though the best friends are different (maybe one is really sporty, the other is into wacky clothes, or movies or something) and they are still friends. I was looking around the hallways at school today and I realized that every friend group is just a little cluster of clones. Every girl talks the same, dresses the same and acts the same. They have the same interests and only do certain things because it has been deemed “cool” by the others. In books, the girls are different and that is what makes them like each other. They can do, say and think differently without needing constant validation by their peers. When I come and think about it, maybe people will like you if you are just like them, but they will really be interested in and admire you if you are different. So long as you like what you do, and rock it with confidence, people will look up to you and admire you. All this AND you can still be great friends with your besties, they may even like you better for it.

I know now that this sounds kinda like a really cheesy Pinterest quote, but I can’t help it. I’m a walking self help book! But it is actually pretty true. I’d like to not make choices based upon the general population of my school, and rather on what I like and what makes me happy. This could be really hard, but it will probably benefit me in ways I don’t even know yet.

Have any of you ever though the same thing? I’d love to know you thoughts!

Love,

NiceGirl